i think this must be one
of the most haunting songs everrr,
scenes of the big romantic mess that
Grey's is comes flashing by and
switches me into my
cancel the world out mode.
i get worried by how comfortable
i am in this mode and how unwilling i
can get to switch out of this mode.
i wish i'd sorted things out by now.
i hope one day it'll all fall into place,
and we'll look back on our silly selves.
i know im not one of those whose lives
get sorted out, but meanwhile,
i think i'll just look at it as it burns?
i am full of fluff and all that im ever
good at with people are the mindless
superficials and the lols,
just to try to overcompensate for how
im scared to death of depth and substance
because they bare all my frailties naked.
so i'm both thankful and perplexed
by how things flowed because
we started on unusual ground.
distance and ambiguity keeps me safe
but the world likes to snap you out and
into reality.
im not good at this but i want to be
so lets see how this will be.
1:48 AM